this is random, it is not a sponsored-post or any related. Just want to make this entry after receiving a parcel that I've order from Lazada.

I order a sunglasses. I just choose the one that I want with of course at the range of affordable price and without checking which brand it is or how the packaging is like which is basically me. yeah.
But the packaging is better than expected, first expression was like 'wuu'
I know it would come with a box of course to cover it up and also a pouch to put the sunglasses, but I don't know, it looks so great, like branded stuff ahaha~ (so jakun and teruja)

the box

this is so nice with the label of the brand ; Hepidem Wolf

okay yes, yes I am using my phone to take all of my photos 😎

this is not my first time to shop at Lazada, so far it is great 💖

The Tale of the Three Whisperers

Once upon a time, there were three wise siblings. The eldest is Doubt, followed by his two younger brothers; Mind and Heart. Heart was so loved by his two elder brothers that whatever Doubt and Mind did, it would always narrowed down to one resolution : to protect Heart.

But most of the time, Heart had a decision of his own. He knew all along that he was fragile and breakable, but Heart was the type of person to put others first before him. He didn't mind breaking, as long as the others can be whole. This noble act is the very hammer that crush him every single time.

Then one day, a man came to the three wise siblings to seek for an advice.

The million-dollar question : Should I?

Doubt whispers ; no.
You'll stumble and fall in the middle of the road
You'll get confused in the intersections
You'll scrape your knee on the tarmac of difficulty, and you won't have the strength to make it to the end.
You'll break Heart, and you cannot bear the anogy that comes with it.
The price is too unaffordable.
No. Doubt whispers again.

Mind whispers ; no.
Doubt could be right,
All these difficulties ahead of you,
will exceed your breaking point.
And I know yourself well, hitherto it is the mind who controls you.
Don't risk an obvious failure.
I won't risk Heart, so precious
but carries so much pain in the cracks of his vessels.
That once Heart breaks, the pain unleashed will of course weight you down on you next.
No. Mind whispers again.

Heart whispers : yes.
Don't you remember me, young man?
I am so used to be broken.
All your life has been a journey to search to search for the missing pieces of me.
Give it a try, my friend.
You'll either find the pieces of me, or
you'll break me down even further.
I don't mind both.

Tell my beloved brothers that no matter how hard they try to protect me -
The Heart is meant to wound and heal.
And I have a little friend right here to strengthen me;
The one you call Hope.

Now you know why some decisions you make are completely against your mind and doubt? Yes, blame Heart. Heart can be a little bitch, so persuasive, so irresistible but in the end it is Heart that you will follow.

Because Heart is your very own existence, your very own core, your very own soul's door.

source from twitter, I bet this is one of the story from a book but I don't know the tittle of the book, would love to know if you can share it :)

if you love her, don't destroy her.

By poliside, source from twitter.

I know you love her.
If you didn't, you wouldn't be with her. But since you're only a human being with variable emotions, you might be inclined to love her in all the wrong ways.

A healthy, happy relationship can transform into a destructive one if you treat her less than how she deserves to be treated.

Nonetheless, I hope you try to love her right. I hope you cast every ray of awareness upon your love for her. I hope you know that awareness is what keeps a relationship strong.

And what floored you the most was her completeness.

If you love her, keep her this way. Keep her beautiful, keep her wild, keep her complete.

While she's the master of her own fate, I wish you understood that you play a major role in her life. How you treat her determines how she views herself—you can make her shine or make her feel lost. She's a statue in your hands she only hopes to be held with vigilance.

If you love her, don't destroy her.

Know that she was destroyed before and another destruction isn't what she's aiming for. If she's with you, know that she has stepped over her fear and insecurities to be with you. She has stepped over her past and decided to give love another chance. She has entrusted you with the health of this relationship—and with her heart.

Don't let her down.

You destroy her the moment you think you know her. She's not a book you will eventually finish. She's something yet to be discovered—so live every day as if you're meeting her for the first time.

Be present. Nothing destroys her more than your emotional absence. You can sit with her all day long and not really be there, yet you can be so far away and be completely present.

Stimulate her thoughts,
her emotions,
her being.
Dive into her soul like you'd dive into an ocean.

Know that you'll wreck her if she ever felt you need her rather than want her. You'll destroy every inch of her if you only love her when loneliness creeps up on you. Because she seeks your love in all moments, not just when your fears and insecurities strike.

I know that your own past sufferings may have destroyed you. But don't love her just so she can carry your emotional baggage  with you. Don't love her if you only want her to fix you. Know that she will, with time, without you even knowing.

Her love and existence will heal every part of you. But if you are with her solely to fill the emptiness inside you, she will know—and it will destroy her.

And remember, she doesn't want to be fixed either. Maybe she opened up to you and told you about her painful past. Perhaps you know the exact number of pieces she was turned into. But she didn't tell you so you would fix her—she only told you so you can know what she endured and how it made her who she is today.

She wants you to acknowledge that your actions toward her—actions motivated by love, understanding and patience—are what matter.

Don't treat her like a broken woman. She is complete with all her pieces, even though they may still be scattered everywhere. Embrace them with her—just don't add to them. Make her see why she went through destructive relationships in the past. Make her realize that she went through the 'worst' so she could appreciate the 'better' that you are.

tentang kekasih setia

Ketahuilah semua apa yang kalian semua sudah mengetahui, untuk menunggu itu suatu yang memeritkan. Di sini aku selitkan kisah sama ada benar atau tidak, pasti ianya pernah berlaku. Biar aku failkan setiap satu isi sudut di dalam hati seorang kekasih menunggu kekasih hati.

Aku bukan pengarang hebat yang mampu menarik minat dengan hanya kisah tersendiri, tapi setiap antara kita punya jalan cerita masing-masing dan setiap yang berlaku aku pilih untuk tulis, catat, taip. Supaya bila berinjak dewasa; bakal aku selak bacaanku, menatap baris ayat yang aku olah, satu hari "tak sangka aku pernah melalui hal-hal ini," gitu.

Biar saja jika cerita ini aku tambah biar sedap dibaca, tapi asal isi kisah ku ini dihayati dan difahami, buat semua. 


Sunyinya dan sepinya membelenggu jiwa-jiwa penghuni rumah ini. Setelah khabar berita anak sulung ibu yang tidak dapat pulang akibat kerja semuanya bagai muram. Aku tahu berita yang aku sampaikan itu terkena pada jiwa perempuan tercintaku ini. Jujur sebenarnya tak mahu aku khabarkan berita sedih itu kepada ibu, tapi kalau tidaknya dikhabarkan bukankan penungguan itu bakal jadi yang sia-sia? 

Walaupun aku tahu selepas berita itu dikhabarkan, ibu masih tetap akan menunggu dan akan sentiasa menunggu. Cuma bezanya jika tidak diberitahu, ibu akan selalu bertanya, diminta bertanya khabar anaknya yang jauh, diminta record suaranya melalui whatsapp; katanya biar anaknya tahu si ibu sentiasa merindui dan biar anaknya melepas rindu mendengar, begitu penjelasannya. 

Aku tahu ibu sudah terluka.

Aku juga tahu ibu rindu, siapa yang tak rindu anak oi. Tambah-tambah pula susah mahu bersatu, kalau berkumpul pun tak selalu lama. Aku tahu ibu pendam, setiap kali berkumpul ibu sering menatap wajah seorang demi seorang anaknya, tumpah kasihnya tak pernah berhenti, adakah kalian semua faham akan perasaan anak bongsu seperti aku ini yang sentiasa ada bersama ibu, tidak jauh, sentiasa ada, aku sudah hafal semua reaksinya, bahasa tubuhnya, perlakuannya.

Aku tak mahu bersuara kerna aku tahu, pabila aku bersuara semua bakal aku luah, ungkit biar terasa kesal mereka, hanya satu sebabnya aku tahan-- ibu.

Aku tak kisah kalau tidak pulang, tapi rindu ibu itu selalu--begitu juga dengan aku.
Aku tak kisah kalau tidak pulang, asal sentiasa berhubung, bertanya khabar, biar hati si ibu girang.
Aku tak kisah kalau tidak pulang, walau sibuk terlalu, asal jika ada masa yang singkat, luang,
mesej pun sudah bermakna.
bukankah ini semua buat wanita yang sudah bersusah payah melahirkan kita?
kenapa terlampau berkira?

Aku tahu.
Aku sebagai seorang anak pun bukanlah selalu menjaga.
Aku juga sedar terkadang sebagai anak terlepas juga bicara menyakitkan hati ke orang tua.
Aku juga sudah sedar yang terkadang kita ini melukakan hati orang tua di luar keinginan yang sebenar.

Aku tahu.
Aku juga seorang anak,
yang punya orang tua,
sama seperti kalian semua.

(sudah aku peram episod ini dari raya 2016, entah mengapa jangan ditanya)

Blue Sky Tag!

have been lack of ideas to write these day, but thanks to Afifah Addnan & Kaella , I could finally post an entry about ;

The Blue Sky Tag is created for a good chance to know each other (bloggers) and be a part of the blogging community. So you can make new questions that you would always want to know from others blogger, it would be great if they can answers them too. 

For this tag, you should follow the rules, here it is ;
  1. Answers the 11 questions given
  2. Tag 11 bloggers
  3. Create 11 new questions to answer
Let's start it!

1. What was the last movie you watch?

it is such a long time, since I am working, yeahafter visiting old school, my friends and I straight away to the cinema with all of us wearing baju kurung, got chill 😎
2. What are you trying to achieve with your blog?

I am right now putting some goals for the future of this blog. This is the platform for me to write. I would love to publish my own book, if people would ask, what kind of book you would love to publish?, I would say a poem book (check out my hashtag of #wordsbyJA and others yaa!) , or a thought book (it is also refer to the version of diary, journal) (something that relate to the reminder to self, cute notes, imagination—that can make people realize sth) I want to publish book(s), and also would love to make it as my side income. I also want to try to make money with this blog, why not put some rewards for the things that you love, right? as a symbol of your hardworks, I guess. So, it seems I have to work harder, from now on(loooong way to go)

3. Do you think you are someone with a sense of humor?

em not sure, sometimes, I bet I am 💁 , you would describe me as a happy-go-lucky kind of person if you know me, yeah

4. Imagine 10 years ago. How does that make you feel about yourself now?

10 years ago, I was still in a primary school. I feel pretty good since I have to answer this question makes me refresh some childhood memories, kind of—apparently it has such a big differences, I am loving it more now 💕

5. How would your friend describe you?

hahaha, this is seriously fun, I've got tons of answers, I wouldn't post all of it, so I post a picture at insta-story says "Need some answers for an entry in my blog, you should just describe me from your point of view." so,

this is from one of my bestfriend 😂
alahai, describe level paling tak ikhlas sebenornye pun  😂😂
6. Do you have hobbies that others might find unusual?

friends and family does told me that I am weird for having a collection of mugs, cups, tumbler and etc.

7. Have you done anything illegal?

skip classes~~ (so boring)

8. If you ended up being a prisoner, what likely to be the reason?

I'm shock for this question, never think about this and why should I ahaha, maybe the reason is because of stealing?...

9. What most likely the thing that will get you angry?

there's a lot to list down 😂 but mostly for sure, I don't like people change the position of my things such as stationary or makeup stuff if I have organize it neatly, so far~

10. How do you handle yourself when you are angry?

actually I don't really know how I usually handle myself when I am angry...

11. Best thing to eat when you are angry?

I eat chocolates 🍫 to makes myself calm, but I hate it for some reasons, fat fat

here's the questions from Kaella 🌸

1. What is the most bad things you’ve ever did ?

I guess I shouldn't have to share at here the 'most' bad things, right? So here I would say the bad things that I did for myself. Firstly, I am stupidly begging for something that I don't ever wanna lost, but still, they choose to go. I also let those people who let me down, it feel frustrating, but the pain just disappear by the time.

2. Baking or cooking ?

I'm more to baking rather than cooking, but I do cook, it is just baking is such a never-ending-hobby 🍪

3. If you have  rm100000 in your bank account, what would you do with that money ?

If ever this is the reality 💰 the first one I would fulfill all the needed things for both of my parent and myself. Next, I would try to open up a business since money will be slowly fading away if we don't know how to manage it, yeah, that's it.

4. If you see someone sitting in the walking road, asking for money, did you give them money ?

maybe inshaAllah, depends on their way too

5. What would you do if stranger say “hi assalammualaikum” to you ?

would answer them back because it is a must to reply for muslims and after that I would just smile, ahaha cause I am not so good to give expression to strangers, I would just wait for them to start a conversation.

6. Who is the most important person in your life ?

Both of my parents, family, bestfriend

7. Who is the lucky women / man did you call everyday ?

I'm such a boring person, don't ask me. (motif nak elak soalan)

8. What kind of selfie you did last time ?

a face-swap selfie with my nephew!

9. What is the most wish list you made that come true ?

A new phone! Because I've been using tablet before, and for the size sometimes really annoys me and I have use it for years and it has been sick lately, but still, i love you just because for everything 💖

10. Watching movie in cinema or shopping ?

can I choose or? aha it's not easy! But I would choose shopping because I only go to cinema if I have any plans with my friends mostly.

11. What is the first thought when you first blogwalking to my blog ? 

"the owner of this blog is so cute! 😍"

I would love to tag;
SA-VIORS | Fatin. | Hanah | Hafzhan Rauf | Nana Johari 
--i don't really know who to tag to, freely can do it and share the link at the comment section or at my cbox 💕

my questions;

1. What would you name a fanclub if you have one and why.
2. Show your makeup palettes collection or any makeup stuff that you love.
3. Recommend one of your favourite book and rate for it.
4. Show your handwriting.
5. What do you think you're good at?
6. vintage theme or garden theme or beach theme for wedding?
7. Three current favourite songs.
8. Top three favourite store to visit when you go to mall.
9. Tell about a unique thing about yourself.
10. Recommend three blogs, why?
11. What do you think about my blog (jarsofjournal)?