Friday, December 22, 2017

breathe (한숨)

take a deep breath;
so that either side of your heart becomes numb.
exhale one more time.

until you feel the slightest of pain;
it’s alright if you feel so full of air;
that you feel,
nothing’s left inside you anymore.
no one’s blaming you.
it’s alright to make mistakes sometimes.
it happens to the best of us.
the words, “it’s okay” -
they may be nothing but words,
but isn’t there a day that i can,
do something about somebody’s sigh?
that deep breath of sorrow.
i can’t understand your innermost thoughts;
but that’s okay. i’ll take you in my embrace.
i’ll take you in my embrace.

to others, your sigh may seem
like one of tiredness, but i know
that you spent an entire day
so different that the smallest breathe is hard to breathe.
don’t think of that any longer; take a deep breath.

but, isn’t there a way that i can
do something about somebody’s sigh?
that deep breath of sorrow;
i can’t understand your innermost thoughts.
but that’s okay. i’ll take you into my embrace.
you’ve done so well.

— l e e   h i

composed by: kim jonghyun + wefreaky
lyrics by: kim jonghyun
arranged by: philtre (planet shiver)
translation by: @ikon0t7
copy fromfyjjong

while listening to this song—it feels so calm yet so sad, it’s just flowing slowly.

Sunday, December 03, 2017

burned out

he was certain
so was I
there was comfort
in her sighs
dreams and ideas should not be the same thing
You waited smiling for this

oh she’d want it
if she knew
she could take it,
I thought too
be careful be cautious but you just wished harder
you waited smiling for this


“But they love you!” over and over “they love you!”
thousands and thousands of
eyes just like mine
aching to find
who they are
and they love you! oh you can feel how they love you!
coated and warm but that’s
all they can do
words only get through
if they’re sharp

Oh how fitting
for one so fake
make me a fairy
whatever it takes
and just like her tale my dream was a scam
Oh you waited smiling for this

I am burnt out
I smell of smoke
it seeps through her cracks and so I start to choke
sentences sit in her mouth that are templated
You waited smiling for this


I can just talk about it
maybe I'll talk about it
i'll never talk about it
i cannot talk about it

don't build hope on something broken
i am not cartoon
cry for help
i am not joking
i might just leave soon.

—dodie clark

Thursday, November 30, 2017

S a v e e B e a u t y

yayy for more entry in terselit-beauty-post,
and yayy for another Savee Beauty haul 🛍
feelin' proud of myself (-lazy is the new busy 😎


so let's get right into it ;

Savee Lip Protector — Strawberry 🍓

tak berapa suka sangat, paling least favourite, tak pernah lagi setakat ni apply dekat bibir 😅

Savee Lip Protector — Apple

selalu guna lip protector as lip balm (of course), apply sebelum pakai lip matte yang paling kerap atau kalau duduk rumah seharian—kalau rasa bibir kering atau pucat memang akan apply memanjang. Apple ni paling best, smell so nice—semanis 🍎 ye, my favourite.

Lip Protector — Cherry 🍒

yang ni pun okay, biasa-biasa tapi lama sikit lepas apply rasa macam mint (?), bukan kebas tapi rasa fresh gitu, nice—boleh tahan, tapi tak favourite sangat.

kalau tak silap Savee lip protector ada lebih dari tiga tapi dekat booth cuma ada yang diatas sahaja 👆, ooh, cherry ni sebenarnya beli waktu second purchase, tapi tak update entry. 

Blusher 1

bukan selalu pakai blusher pun sebenarnya, tapi nice sangat color, jadi bila fikir RM1 ja, boleh buat collection sikit-sikit kan? 

but I gave this to my sister 😁

Blusher 3

I loveee this one - it is more to nude-ish, tapi tak cuba lagi. sangatlah menarik perhatian seketul manusia ni 👀 tak berapa nak confident apply blusher, even rutin harian kalau keluar—compact powder, eyeshadow (kalau rasa perlu-mostly tak perlu), lipstick atau lip matte, perfume, I'm done!

kali ni tak beli mask sebab ada banyak lagi tak guna, so save dulu, lain kali ada kita sapu ye.

this is not my first time purchase their product, you can check it 👉 [here] 👈 my first haul of Savee Beauty, include today's haul entry, it has been three times. 

Savee Beauty website ; [ here ]
Savee Beauty instagram ; [ here ]

go and check 'em out!

I've been lack of ideas these days to update entries, but a big no to excuses, and this entry - I am pretty sure - totally boring.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

cleanser (s)

there's more actually, if I put all of them, it wouldn't look nice   👀

em review ke?


Eversoft Cleansing Foam 

   15g trial pack   

sudah terang lagi bersuluh dari front packaging—tomato dan timun, maka tak ketinggalan bau cleanser ni sedikit sebanyak terpengaruh, entah kenapa tak berapa selesa dengan bau dia, agak tak menyenangkan (my opinion—the side of my weirdness)

   formulated with 100% organic plant actives   
   free from parabens, alcohol, mineral oil, triclosan and no animal testing   

good point untuk Eversoft Foam Cleanser; lepas cuci muka rasa sangat licin (for a good-long time), which is great, tapi baru try three of their trial pack, so it is not too great to do a review. Well, will  come back after I use it?

memang waktu terjumpa dalam guardian taknak beli banyak even trial pack, purchase tiga dulu, so far okay (boleh la tahan setakat guna tiga trial pack yang kecik-comel-sayang nak picit bebanyak waktu cuci muka—okay), tapi serius appreciate sangat produk yang jual trial pack, in case bila pakai tiba-tiba tak sesuai dengan muka dan dalam masa yang sama ada banyak lagi kuantiti produk—rugi. So, cleanser ni akan jadi second option mungkin sebab tak berapa suka bau dia, (sebab terbaik kenapa terletak dicarta kedua atau ketiga mungkin  😁) 


Nanowhite Fresh Gel Cleanser

   10g trial pack   

jatuh cinta   💘
ah jatuh cinta dengan Nanowhite Fresh ni, ada high expectation untuk yang ni, and it is right! bau wangi, suka. waktu bilas dengan air dekat muka, rasa segar dengan buih cleanser. 

    No Paraben | No Mineral Oil | No Animal Derivatives   

ada baca sikit dekat website, memang asalnya line produk untuk Nanowhite Fresh ni mostly untuk masalah muka berminyak, so this product included vitamin C, tea tree oil and sea algae 👍👍
short cute note here; it's Nina, the girl at the packaging, lookin' cute there 😉

ni sekali purchase dengan Eversoft cleanser, beli tiga jugak awalnya, but I am lovin' it so far, termasuk harini dah guna sembilan trial pack and currently using, would definitely repurchase.

Kenapa tak beli the actual size terus? (because my friend ask me this question) well, I'm planning to buy the set of three yang ada Nanowhite Fresh cleanser, miracle mist dengan moisturiser, would be more affordable dari beli produk ni berasingan, you can save some of your moneyyy too.

boleh check sini, Nanowhite Website

rasanya trial pack ni tak semua guardian & watsons ada, setakat yang pernah jumpa hanya dekat guardian dan sama juga, tak semua guardian ada jual. for me, yang memang jenis takut nak cuba produk lain, trial pack akan jadi sangat berguna, at least—mencuba adalah big step yang kita buat, siapa  yang nak muka sendiri bermasalah, kan? sebab memang tak ada skincare routine, hanya mencuba tons of masks (all type), lepas habis sekolah baru rasa nak memanjakan muka sikit—


would update more in terselit-beauty-post soon?

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

tower of papers

no words

I have no words
no words that can heal
all that is broken
or for what they feel

no, I have nothing
for this sort of pain
but we can keep loving
We will love in their name

And though some are broken
We will not be scared
You can't take away kindness
You can't take away care

But I have no words
that can help with the pain
My heart’s with the grieving
because what could I say.

—dodie clark


It took so much time, finally, success and escape from september. It has been raining heavily most of the days, and so do my heart, it kept raining heavily too. And for now, the last day of october, nothing much have change, patiently waiting for november to appear, in hope that better things are coming.

"please don't cry"

dear, perhaps you can change it to

"you can do it, hwaiting"
"you are doing great until now, keep moving forward with better!"

it is okay to feel sad sometimes, but you have to keep looking forward and slowly gather all of your strength to walk in the future. Even in your small steps, your effort will make it bigger.

that would sound much better 😊

" you build me up. "

I should write more I guess, it's a way to solve and also can be the book for myself to read over and over again without feeling bored. I am not too great with words, but sometimes, my own words can makes me feel so alive, in my own world, cheering my own self.

"—and it took most of heart to follow the flow, my heart in raining heavily too."


Allah knows when you do something for someone and they don't thank you.
He knows when you get up to pray in the early hours of the morning 
while the rest of the world is asleep.
He knows when you hold your tongue instead of being rude or disrespectful.
He knows when you don't argue with your parents even though you know you're right.
He knows when you do the right thing when no one is watching.
He knows when you make du'a for your enemies instead of hurting them with bad words.
He knows when you do the smallest of good deeds, so small even you forget about it.
Allah knows.

"It is a journey, make it great to be the experience that you have been through successfully."


Hug them.
If you can't hug them, hold them.
If you can't hold them, don't say a word, just look at them.
If you can't look at them, try to make them acknowledge at your existence.
Tell them you're sorry-even you're the one at fault.
Tell them you're there for them.
Tell them they're worth more than they think they do.
If they're being sulky, it's okay,
they too deserve to feel a little love.
Tell them they deserve all the time and space in the world to be sad, angry and grieve.
Give your attention, make them feel wanted.
I don't know about you, but that's a great way in cheering someone up.

"You're feeling burn out and discouraged, but you've made it this far and that's really brave—"

I love to write a lot, even at the smallest things—when I bought new cactus, how lai guan lin from wanna one makes me want to fangirling again (trust me I have tried to not being obsessed with k-pop), and when mum surprise me with my favorite vanilla caramel along with red velvet cake from one of my favourite cafe ( 😱😍 ) and I cry for that because she never did that before, got excited when sister text me says, "open this website, pick something that you want," 💕 oh-my-sister-so-great-and-thoughtful-sometimes. —and there's a lot more, if I continue, it would be my entire life story. would you believe me?

I am so grateful


I am so happy

with writing, it can make someone feel so great.